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While browsing, accidently stumbled on one article in Orkut

Prits!!Pretty!Prettiest! Sprite!!

December 31, 2006 by Rishi

I started this blog since you wouldn’t just speak to me. I anyways am a person who generally doesn’t have much to speak with most people. You are the one person I really loved to speak with - sharing things from the most intelligent to the trite, inane or irritating. Things which were joyful, sad or ordinary.

While I have come to live with things the way they are and loosing things, people and places that I love it still is painful to think that you will refuse to speak to me.

I joined Orkut on 24th December 06 and instinctively the first thing I did was to look for whether you were there! I had no malice in mind. No evil intentions to stalk you. Just a feeling of the same love and attachment that I have always felt.

This blog is a kind of catharsis for me. A kind of illusion which I develop as I see the words develop on the screen that I am indeed speaking to you. I have regained my strength of mind but there still are moments when you fill my thoughts completely. I am like a deer caught in the blowlight of a fast approaching vehicle. Too stunned to react. It is for such moments that this blog will help. Getting me out and into action.

All of life anyway is an illusion I feel. And there is no harm in creating illusions which help in carrying forward with work and life in a positive manner.

In September 2005 a year after the unfortunate incidence between us in August 2004 I visited numerologist Suniel Naik. While career, progress and other things were all the usual things of discussion (I was with my mother) what I was really keen to know was your role in my life.

I spoke of the enormous pain that I had gone through in the the past three years and how much I found it difficult to behave practically and forget you. Suniel Naik informed me of the number 8. How your birthday added up to 8 and how it was a very bad number for me. I couldnt believe my ears but took to believing it strongly if not for anything then to be able to come to track and accept it as a strong lever to get myself out of the unbelievable rut I had got myself into

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